What do I want?

Sunday is normally my night for crashing. I have been out for the last four nights and just want to collapse with my book of Brothers Grimm fairy tales, my Cabbage Patch Kid and fall into bed. THIS Sunday more than usual, however it wasn't to be.

Instead one of my housemates offered to cook a roast, which I said, 'Yeah, sounds great.' Then before I know it he's got other friends coming over and it's like, 'I'm really not up for company.' Then he's invited round MY friend who he's shagging. It's like now I REALLY have to entertain people. I just want to hide in my room.

As it was it wasn't so bad. I made the effort. But now his friends have gone except for mine and the two of them are watching TV. I left them to it.

I also found out that the friend in question molested my other housemate last night. So that's two of my housemates he's getting it on with now.

Once again I would like to say I don't want to get off with him, however it doesn't do much for my self-esteem knowing this.

I don't know. It's fucked. I give up.