Is this a little sick?

After an evening of watching hopeful X Factor candidates pass/fail tonight, I can only compare our situations...granted it's in some twisted fashion but I saw the parallel.

Every year you get the sob stories, 'Oh, I'm doing this for my wife who died, she loved hearing me sing,' 'I'm doing this for my father who passed away last year and was always telling me to go for things like this' or the classic, 'I'm just doing this for me and my family so we can live a better life.' There are those stories which are not quite so moving - 'I'm a waitress in a swanky restaurant and I don't want to be serving celebrities any more, I just want to be one,' 'My little village in Ireland is so small no one realises it exists, I just want to put it on the map,' or the classic, 'My town Bridgend has hit the press recently as there were a bunch of teen suicides. Did I know any of them? No, but I want to bring some good news to my village.'

So where do I relate? Well to be honest I've just totally lost my focus for this blog. I was going to write about how much I wanted to be going out with Stephen. Then I figured that was kind of lame to be wanting a relationship with someone that much and that not only should no person ever have that much control over me but also I don't want to be my Mother and just settle in a relationship just for the sake of it, even if that means it isn't right for me.

I don't want to talk to anyone. I actually want to go back to work because it takes my mind off him. But even as I write this, I realise it all sounds so much of a cliche.

ENOUGH!