Sex

This is a subject that often occupies my mind. I don't really like the way it manipulates my mind. It's like an addiction that my conscience then judges me on. I've had a STD in the past which resulted in two nasty operations but I still find myself hitting the saunas.

I have a bit to drink, talk about sex with friends, check out guys in clubs then before I know it my hormones have taken over. I don't go to them often, in fact hardly at all, but that doesn't stop me feeling bad about it.

I went last night and messed around with these two guys who were so hot! Literally 100% my type. Big, burly, French/Turkish, hairy - amazing. One tried to fuck me without a condom which obviously is not going to happen and the other kept running his cock up and down my arsecrack. It freaks me out that I could catch something like before, but then when I'm in that situation I can't stop myself. It becomes even more wrong and therefore exciting.

I crave it sometimes. I ended up having sex in a doorway in Chinatown the other night. Not big or clever. But I have a few drinks and before I know it chaos reigns.

That said, I obviously have issues as what really is wrong with that? Some of my friends would be shocked, others are like, 'Get over it, I've done much worse'.

I guess it's nto so bad. the thing that sucks the most is that i can't even remember it that well as I was drunk. Boy, were they hot...